Miracles happen unexpectedly and unconsciously. During the show on Monday, I found myself really happy and enjoying the whole process - from practising during rehearsal to interacting with other artists on the real performance. I was much less tense and cautious as I had been during the contest, and more intuitive and being myself, and as light as a feather! Dad and mom were in the studio and they caught my joy too. I wonder how this mental transition has come about. Your miracle is the only reason I can think of.
Thank you for taking away my blur and confusion in life, and replacing it with a joyful and childlike heart!
While I was talking to Jun yesterday, I realised the change in our hearts since entering the work society. We were much more childlike, and could interpret everything with Your perspective. I used to always believe that everything happens for a reason in You. I had total trust in You, and that I could love and forgive anyone with Your grace, and never worry about human politics. But now as I am more indulged in a distorted human society, my eyes start to focus on people interactions and would want to learn to see through what others are thinking, only to protect myself from any possible danger. I do not know how to apply Your simple worldview into this complicated world. Perhaps I just less trust that the world can be conquered with such perfectionist belief (thus, kind of naive), or with simple ideas such as love and grace... How much I'd wish to be able to see in Your simple way, and be back the child who is courageous, not afraid of making mistakes, loving and forgiving? How much I'd wish I am already equipped with the wisdom to deal with human cunningness, and fully protected by You, so I can just enjoy being the child in You? I know You promised all these. Can I genuinely trust?
Oh yes, this is like Adam and Eve having been able to see the world and know how to "judge" in an earthly perspective, would want to hide their nakedness. I hear Him saying "Where are you, my child??? Nothing has changed except what you think you can see... Why are you hiding now?"
Thank you dear Papa for reopening my eyes, and enlightening me with this assurance. You heard my cries and responded to my prayers when I did not even notice. I pray that I will be always close to You to know Your heart and be the creation You created. And I pray for Jun as well for Your lifting.
Love You.
Amen!