Something happened that I still cannot fully comprehend. It may be Your work, but I must admit there is doubt in me...
On Sunday Paster Andrew was talking about how You created the world to be good but sin distorted the original face of humans and the world. He was talking about how You have come to change our roots and soil so we can have new green leaves again. I just teared as usual when I heard of how great You are. And this lady next to me was so sensitive at my little tears that she kept giving me tissue papers.
After service the lady briefly shared her story and offered to pray for me. She said she had the gift of healing, and asked if I were willing to be healed. Sooo many thoughts then ran through my mind - was she some kind of Eastern Lightning promoter? I was only touched and so I teared, did I have anything to be healed? The lady said we would see images from God together. So I just prayed to God for protection, and gave it a go.
The lady asked me if I had anything to ask God for healing. How would I know? She was the one who said I needed healing... My mind went totally blank, only thinking my parents were probably waiting for me to go to lunch. And then the lady said she saw a picture of two men grabbing me in different directions. I couldn't make sense of it, but if that was true in any case, that should be my parents on one side, and God on the other side. The lady then led me to think of it as a happening, the picture should be something that happened in my past. I thought perhaps it was when my dad argued with mom one night when I was about 8 or 9, and he threw something on the ground so hard. That was the only time I could recall that my parents argued and I was so scared that I cried at school the other day... But I have replayed this situation so many times since I grew up, and the replay this time does not feel much different.
Then I started to randomly link things up, probably using my conscious mind. Would that incident be why I could not trust that relationships would last? I had always believed that relationships are fragile, and easily invaded and corrupted by others. And I believe I still believe in this.
Then the lady asked me to see what God has prepared for me, and how my future relationship would be like. This time I saw a picture of my husband and I surrounded by sooo many children. I then laughed and told the lady. She said she saw it too, us in a field of grass, the sun was shining bright, Jesus was with us. Yes that was what I saw. It was the first time I had ever seen something simultaneously with someone else... It felt so weird but true.
So have I been healed after that prayer??? I think it was a divine encounter. But I still would like to ask for another confirmation. Papa pls tell me that I'm healed like you told the bleeding lady verbally. Everything still seemed so non-understandable.
I pray in Jesus' name.
Amen.